I got dressed for work and walked up to my daughter and said softly, “bunny I don’t think I’m gonna make it to the show today”.
And she gave me the look.. the “I already knew you were gonna disappoint me” look. I told her mom was gonna record it for me and she’d be awesome and I’d watch it later.
And she gave me the look and just turned away. And I crumbled. I picked up my phone and messaged work right away asking if it was alright to be late today to see my kid’s holiday concert.
Without a second thought, the response back was “absolutely”… “those are the moments never to be missed”… And I went back and told my kid, “actually I’m gonna be at your show after all”
I realized in that moment it was ME putting the pressure on me..
worried all this time that work can’t get by without me that I’ve got to be there every second.. ME putting the pressure on ME… no one else.
I went to the show and my daughter took the stage and I waved at her across the room as she stood on the platform.. and she smiled back and I waved some more.
Her elementary school class sang and they were the sweetest holiday tunes ever.. and all the pressure that ME had put on ME washed away in a sea of music.
“The moments never to be missed”. The words hung with me as I waved goodbye to my daughter as she went back to class.
Today I was there and present and my work did just fine without me… and I was perfectly OK with it..
Work will always be there.. the elementary school holiday musical with my kid singing to me.. won’t be.
I just wanted to savor it… the moments never to be missed.